So I'm finally getting a chance to lay out by the pool (obviously this is quite rare) on a beautiful Sunday afternoon counting my blessings after a good church service and going to the memorial of a wonderful man.
Selfishly I wanted to go on the lake today as it's one of the last weekends I have before going back to school online (with my studio this means weekends is when class work gets done) but after hearing friends and family speak of all the lessons laughter and memories of "Bob" I knew why God just so happened to have me in a church service speaking of his two loving arms and then a memorial service for a good friend of my boyfriends. I was lead to think what will be said at my funeral? How will I be remembered? What type of legacy will I leave?
I believe this goes for all of us. I'm here at the pool thinking wow I really shouldn't have had a cheat meal of hamburger and fries (at least they were sweet potato fries right lol) and I realized really, who cares? Everyone else at the pool is either concerned with their own self insecurities to notice me, or too concerned about watching their kids to care or simply just having fun with their kids and friends to even notice. Funny how hard on ourselves we get huh? But is that how I want to be remembered? Oh the girl who looked good in a bikini... You know the one who missed out on life because she was to busy going to the gym or didn't want to be tempted to eat bad... No way... I want live life, I want my legacy to be the girl with a big heart always ready to do whatever with friends and family and always full of fun! I want to be the girl people can always come to and count on I want to spend my days developing my faith and relationships not just my glutes and guns or whatever. Don't get me wrong i''ll still be in the gym 6 days a week and still eating 95% clean but when the situation arises I want to have fun and just importantly I won't feel guilty about it. I do what I do as far as competing training and fitness modeling because I love it. And I want to continue to grow and further my career I just don't want that to be my only legacy...
Quite frankly the women who are considered real successes in this industry aren't always teeny tiny. Just pull up a few google images and I'm sure you'll be just as surprised as I was to find these women have lives families and quite frankly have quite the pay checks and I hope they are just as happy and healthy as they are beautiful...
Quote of the day:
"The aim of art is to represent not the outward appearance of things, but their inward significance." -Aristole