So it's taken me over a month to finally post this but after talking to a few of my close friends and fellow competitors I thought it was only fair to be honest with myself and ya'll...
Looking at my life I am beyond blessed, I myself can't even believe all of the opportunities I've been given through fitness and the love and support I am surrounded by. However as we all have, I've been through quite a few storms (some if which y'all know about) but I'm still here and I'm still stand strong and still fighting. All that being said lets get real here cause I feel like I owe it to y'all to know the other side of my story... I have a huge problem with binge eating... Not had I mean have... Mon-Sun afternoon I'm great, I eat clean I train mean, I'm a poster child for the perfect healthy lifestyle. But every Sunday evening it's the same old story as hard as I try, I always find myself staring at an empty box of cereal or the bottom of the peanut butter jar.... I get my one cheat meal a week (which could be two if i didn't binge eat so bad) and i just don't stop i go crazy and eat everything in sight and hate it, I work so hard the rest of the week and blow it... I'm sick and
tired of 2 steps forward and one step back, or even 2 forward and 3 back some days... You would think being a personal trainer and doing 10 figure fitness shows in two years I could get a handle on my diet and do something about it wouldn't you? You would think I would know how binge eating is for you and how all the cardio in the world the next day won't "fix" it... Well guess what I do know and I preach it until I'm blue in the face but quite frankly I don't know how to fix it... Ive been fighting this little battle with myself for about a year now and i literally hate myself for it. I've tried having my weekly cheat
meal on a day other than Sunday and come Sunday night there I go again... I've tried eating only clean foods for my cheat meal (which is all I have at my house) And still I end up over doing it with the cereal or almond butter... To the point that I feel sick.... I've tried eating something really bad like doughnuts or cheesecake and I still over do it and feel even more guilty, I've tried eating a meal out and stopping there but the minute I get home I'm fixated on not eating more and always succumb to stuff my face as fast as I can... Trigger one: Sunday evenings (normally spent at my Mom's (I don't keep anything but clean food in my house)
My problem is normally peanut or almond butter so I tried giving it up for lent... The first peanut butter free Sunday, no peanut or almond butter... I instead as hard as I tried I ate too candy bars (small ones, not miniature but small...) now I haven't eaten a whole candy bar in years... I mean years... But for some reason I ate two... Since then it's been chex mix, cereal (organic cereal with unsweetened almond milk, so healthy but a whole lot of cereal...) and s'mores (again with the candy bars)... not all in one Sunday but still it's bad... One more week until Easter and I can have peanut/almond butter again and still not even a bite so at least I can be proud of that. Trigger two: Peanut/Almond butter
I'm a problem solver, I like to figure out why; so as hard as I've racked my brain trying to figure out exactly why I binge eat the way I do I can't tell you. It could be stress, lack of sleep, emotional eating maybe something to do with my Dad's recent death, wanting to be "normal and eat normal food," or pressure I put on myself to look and act perfect, it could be my body lacking some nutrients (although I doubt this as I get a great variety in my diet working closely and constantly changing it up with my Cathy Savage fitness Coach who know about this little overeating problem of mine as well and has been a huge help) or about a dozen other factors or underlying issues. Personally I think its a combination of it all and I just psych myself into having a problem that I can't seem to fix (control issues??)...
I suppose the first step here is admitting you have a problem and after deciding I was going to write this little blog and talk to a few other people in the fitness world it seems to have helped a bit. Last Sunday my "cheat meal" was homemade protein brownies (recipe on under the recipe tab) a single serving of chex mix and 2 french fries and let me tell you Monday I felt great, not perfect, but for me great. I did also avoid my Mom's house since it seems to be a trigger as well and I knew there is all kind of goodies there (I believe eating clean is your own decision not anyone else's you shouldn't try to change their lives especially to accommodate yours unless they ask) but I can't avoid it every Sunday and I don't want to it just so happened I was busy making my protein brownies. I'm sure this little problem has cured itself overnight and I'm sure it's something I'll always be struggling with but at least now I know I'm honest and I'm not the only one trying to fight the binge eating battle.
The best advice I've got for any issues ya'll may be facing as well is: find your trigger points and avoid them and more importantly simply just talk. Talk it out, get it out, let it out... be honest with yourself and don't be afraid to admit your faults or wrongs, talk to someone a friend, a family member, a coach a teach a mentor a therapist whatever, heck even talk to something (yes I talk to my dog about problems from time to time) blog, write it a journal whatever, just get it out! Also, don't be afraid to ask for help it it doesn't mean you a weak it means your strong enough to admit you need help! Just let it out, it's just another step to finding your true self and loving the person looking back at you in the mirror every day!
Quote of the Day:
"It's not hard hard you fall, because it's inevitable, someday you will... And it's not just how fast you get back up... it's how fast you get back going..." ~Me
We'll update on the collar bone situation... Finally went to the doctor yesterday and I did in fact sprain my AC join (part of the collar bone where it connects with the sternum) Unfortunately it's a rather tricky injury to treat and hard to put back in place correctly. Especially since my pecs are so strong (which is not a bad thing!). But lucky for me I have a great chiropractor who I've been seeing for years who can fix everything I've ever managed to mess up (even sinuses) Dr. Damien Rodulfo at Healing Hands Chiropractic (www.greensborosportschiro.com). So he put it back in place worked on the pec and traps a bit, taped me up and told me to come back on Mon. Still trying to train although my workouts aren't nearly as intense as I would like but still getting the cardio and dieting (thank heaven for Isagenix making it enjoyable and tasty to eat clean) in, so all is well. I hate not giving it all I've got training but for the next few weeks it's better for me to think big picture and play it safe not sorry. It's gonna be a big year and I'm 10 weeks out from my next show in Atlanta, so bring it on! I can't wait to be on stage again!!
In other news Easter in 2 weeks and I still haven't had peanut or almond butter!!! Haha! I've got another recipe up for "Get well soon soup" so make sure ya'll check that out as well!
Quote of the day:
"Where there's a will there's a way, and each and
Well ya'll still having the technical difficulties with computer (2 new recipies to post once I get it back up and running though!) which has also turned into my car's wiring problems, on top of needing expensive new and I managed to separate/dislocate my collar bone again... Needless to say a bit frusterated and decided it was best to pull out of the next show I was planning on, Fitness America Foxwoods show in Conneticut the end of April... Which honestly just sucks. I hate feeling like I quit, although I know it's a much better choice to say the money and keep training at 120% with my collar bone giving me problems... It's ok though, I always always bounce back and I'm already looking towards my next show a few weeks later!
Enough with the sob stories though, just wanted to give you the bad news first now for the good news!!! For ya'll that haven't heard I got an add in April's Oxygen Mag for 1.M.R. by BPI!!!! It's not a big deal but this is huge accomplishment for me and a personal goal/dream I've been working towards for almost 3 years now! Make sure to check it out, its near the middle of the mag and is supposed to be running for about 6 months in Oxygen and a few other mags! I'm extremely blessed and honored for this opportunity but all of the love and support everyone has given me means even more! Facebook posts, emails, phone calls, text, twitter, I LOVE it thank you all so very much, you guys have no idea how much it means to me! Whenever I'm feeling down you guys just remind me how blessed I am and make me want to work even harder! Please keep all the love coming!!! :) Until next time!
Quote of the day:
"Change your thoughts & change your actions, change your actions & change your habits, change your habits & change your life."~Me
Hey ya'll! So sorry it's been so long since I've written on here and updates from the Arnold got updated! I managed to get some type of virus on my computer on my laptop while I was in Ohio... Probably because I left my laptop turned on... oopsy
Anyways the Arnold was once again AWESOME, def a big highlight of my year! This year I worked the 6 pack bags booth which was pretty awesome when Nicole Lee Wilkins, then Dana Lynn Bailey then a few others came over to sign autographs and do videos! We sold out of the small bags by 3pm on Friday but had a few more come in for Saturday, then completely sold out of all of our 1,200 bags early Sunday! (go to www.sixpackbags.com and use the promo code "brea" at checkout to order one of your own and get a 10% discount). I also was helping out over a the Silverback Krew booth which is always a good, and never a boring moment... I didn't get to actually get to see any of the Arnold Arnold Ammature or the Arnold Classic or even the Arnold himself this year either but it's always great getting to see so many friends from all over the country, especially all in one place, and don't even get me started on all the samples! Every other booth is either my favorite protein bar samples or shake samples, then theres granola, trail mix, protein cookies, beef jerkey and about everything else you can think of! It's really hard to not want to blow your diet and eat everything in sight all at once again and again! Along with all those samples there's shaker cups and free t-shirts all over the place, and the crowd knows, Saturday afternoon its quite hard to get through all the madness!
Saturday night the "Silverback Krew" grabbed dinner at Max and Ermmas the hotel restaurant frequented at least once a day for the 2 year in a row before headed out to the "Official Arnold After Party." The after party (the expo is Sunday as well so I'm not exactly sure why they call it an after party) is at Church converted into a club called "Bluestone" or "B.O.M.A. (something Ohio Museum of Art I think) and Carmen Electra was even there! I didn't have anything to drink (not a big drinker but I will have a drink ever now and again for special ocassions) but still had a great time although we were all ready to go back to the hotel around midnight from being so tired from working the Expo all day.
Sunday morning I woke up bright and early to run the Arnold 5k run. For ya'll that don't know, I am not a runner, at all. After 3 years of pretty intense training my endurance has vastly improved but running has always a challenge for me and I've always wanted to run in an event and decided a week or two before, if you're gonna go, go all out and do the Arnold! So Sunday morning I woke up to snow in Ohio and honestly got a bit nervous! But I did it, I finished my first 5k, in the snow, at the Arnold Sports Festival in horrible time, but I finished and it felt great!
Our ride home was a bit snowy as well Sunday but we made it safe and sound. All and all it was a GREAT weekend, so much fun so many inspiring and motivating stories and bodies everyweherI can't wait until next year! For pictures and more details check out my facebook fan page at www.facebook.com/breasharronfitness!
Quote of the day:
"For me life is continuously being hungry. The meaning of life is not to simply exist, to survive, but to move ahead, to go up, to achieve, to conquer." ~Arnold Schwazenegger