Brea Sharron Estep
  • Home
  • About
  • Services
  • Testimonials
  • Get Started
  • Extras
    • Gallery
    • Blog
    • Workouts
    • Fit Tips
    • Healthy Grocery List
    • Favorite Things
    • Product Reviews >
      • Hair Products & Tools
      • Makeup
      • Preworkout
      • Protein
      • Other
    • Recipes >
      • Air Fryer Paleo Chicken Tenders
      • Baked Butternut Squash
      • Blueberry Cheesecake
      • Caramel Nut Granola
      • Clean Apple Pie
      • Clean Cashew Chicken
      • Clean Crockpot Chicken Noddle Soup
      • Chicken Tortilla-less Soup
      • Chipotle Lime Shrimp
      • Chocolate Chip Protein Cookies
      • Chocolate PB Protein Lava Cake
      • Cilantro Lime Chicken
      • Fresh Salsa
      • Get Well Soon Soup
      • Gluten Free Avocado Brownies
      • Gluten Free Chocolate Chip Cookies
      • Grilled Asparagus
      • Hearty Minestrone Soup
      • Not So Chunky Monkey Cookies
      • Maple PB2 Protein Pancakes
      • One Pan Chicken Sweet Potatoes and Veggies
      • Paleo Pumpkin Muffins
      • PB2 Ezekiel Bread French Toast
      • Protein Brownies
      • Protein Cheesecake
      • Protein Energy Bites
      • Pumpkin Protein Pancakes
      • Protien Shake Smoothies
      • Sugar Free Sweet Potato Souffle
      • Sugar Free Salad Dressing
      • Sweet Potato Chips
      • Tuna Burgers
      • Tuna Scramble
      • Turkey Chili

3/31/2012

A tough one...

2 Comments

Read Now
 
So it's taken me over a month to finally post this but after talking to a few of my close friends and fellow competitors I thought it was only fair to be honest with myself and ya'll...
Looking at my life I am beyond blessed, I myself can't even believe all of the opportunities I've been given through fitness and the love and support I am surrounded by.  However as we all have, I've been through quite a few storms (some if which y'all know about) but I'm still here and I'm still stand strong and still fighting. All that being said lets get real here cause I feel like I owe it to y'all to know the other side of my story... I have a huge problem with binge eating... Not had I mean have... Mon-Sun afternoon I'm great, I eat clean I train mean, I'm a poster child for the perfect healthy lifestyle. But every Sunday evening it's the same old story as hard as I try, I always find myself staring at an empty box of cereal or the bottom of the peanut butter jar.... I get my one cheat meal a week (which could be two if i didn't binge eat so bad) and i just don't stop i go crazy and eat everything in sight and hate it, I work so hard the rest of the week and blow it... I'm sick and
tired of 2 steps forward and one step back, or even 2 forward and 3 back some days... You would think being a personal trainer and doing 10 figure fitness shows in two years I could get a handle on my diet and do something about it wouldn't you? You would think I would know how binge eating is for you and how all the cardio in the world the next day won't "fix" it... Well guess what I do know and I preach it until I'm blue in the face but quite frankly I don't know how to fix it... Ive been fighting this little battle with myself for about a year now and i literally hate myself for it. I've tried having my weekly cheat
meal on a day other than Sunday and come Sunday night there I go again... I've tried eating only clean foods for my cheat meal (which is all I have at my house) And still I end up over doing it with the cereal or almond butter... To the point that I feel sick.... I've tried eating something really bad like doughnuts or cheesecake and I still over do it and feel even more guilty, I've tried eating a meal out and stopping there but the minute I get home I'm fixated on not eating more and always succumb to stuff my face as fast as I can... Trigger one: Sunday evenings (normally spent at my Mom's (I don't keep anything but clean food in my house)
My problem is normally peanut or almond butter so I tried giving it up for lent... The first peanut butter free Sunday, no peanut or almond butter... I instead as hard as I tried I ate too candy bars (small ones, not miniature but small...) now I haven't eaten a whole candy bar in years... I mean years... But for some reason I ate two... Since then it's been chex mix, cereal (organic cereal with unsweetened almond milk, so healthy but a whole lot of cereal...) and s'mores (again with the candy bars)... not all in one Sunday but still it's bad... One more week until Easter and I can have peanut/almond butter again and still not even a bite so at least I can be proud of that. Trigger two: Peanut/Almond butter
I'm a problem solver, I like to figure out why; so as hard as I've racked my brain trying to figure out exactly why I binge eat the way I do I can't tell you.  It could be stress, lack of sleep, emotional eating maybe something to do with my Dad's recent death, wanting to be "normal and eat normal food," or pressure I put on myself to look and act perfect, it could be my body lacking some nutrients (although I doubt this as I get a great variety in my diet working closely and constantly changing it up with my Cathy Savage fitness Coach who know about this little overeating problem of mine as well and has been a huge help) or about a dozen other factors or underlying issues.  Personally I think its a combination of it all and I just psych myself into having a problem that I can't seem to fix (control issues??)...
I suppose the first step here is admitting you have a problem and after deciding I was going to write this little blog and talk to a few other people in the fitness world it seems to have helped a bit.  Last Sunday my "cheat meal" was homemade protein brownies (recipe on under the recipe tab) a single serving of chex mix and 2 french fries and let me tell you Monday I felt great, not perfect, but for me great.  I did also avoid my Mom's house since it seems to be a trigger as well and I knew there is all kind of goodies there (I believe eating clean is your own decision not anyone else's you shouldn't try to change their lives especially to accommodate yours unless they ask) but I can't avoid it every Sunday and I don't want to it just so happened I was busy making my protein brownies. I'm sure this little problem has cured itself overnight and I'm sure it's something I'll always be struggling with but at least now I know I'm honest and I'm not the only one trying to fight the binge eating battle.
The best advice I've got for any issues ya'll may be facing as well is: find your trigger points and avoid them and more importantly simply just talk.  Talk it out, get it out, let it out... be honest with yourself and don't be afraid to admit your faults or wrongs, talk to someone a friend, a family member, a coach a teach a mentor a therapist whatever, heck even talk to something (yes I talk to my dog about problems from time to time) blog, write it a journal whatever, just get it out! Also, don't be afraid to ask for help it it doesn't mean you a weak it means your strong enough to admit you need help! Just let it out, it's just another step to finding your true self and loving the person looking back at you in the mirror every day!
Quote of the Day:
"It's not hard hard you fall, because it's inevitable, someday you will... And it's not just how fast you get back up... it's how fast you get back going..." ~Me

Share

2 Comments
kelllyrose
3/31/2012 10:58:20 am

thank you SO much for sharing your story and struggles. i know 100% what you're going through and i'm working on many of the same things myself. in the past i struggled with bulimia for about 2 years, and was "recovered" for 3 years after that. last year i became interested in the fitness industry, competing and weight lifting. i ate extremely healthy and was the picture of health. however, as time went on i started to binge and hide foods and then i would "overcompensate" by exercising more. this got worse and i eventually started purging again. of course, i know how horrible it is for me and how much it's messed up my metabolism in the past so i decided to get help for it. i was put on prozac because it helps with binging (i'm not saying you should go on it also, but it does help a lot of people with this issue), some people naturally have low serotonin levels and binging on certain foods can actually help increase it, so the prozac raises your serotonin levels so you're less likely to binge. my best advice would be to try to figure out if there is any subconcious reason you binge. for example, i'm the same as you..whenever i go home and my parents are sleeping i will binge on everything in sight. i realized there were things about my childhood i hadn't talked to my parents about and i was "stuffing" my feelings away. whether it's a deep psychological issue or just lacking nutrients, i truly hope you can overcome this issue because i know how frustrating it can be! your body is absolutely amazing though and you inspire so many people. i am hoping to compete in my first bikini competition in october and it feels good knowing i'm not the only one struggling with this problem. thank you so much again for sharing!

Reply
West University Place webcams link
9/7/2012 09:20:41 am

Was just taking a break and wanted to post here

Reply



Leave a Reply.

Details

    Archives

    August 2019
    July 2019
    June 2019
    May 2019
    February 2018
    January 2018
    October 2017
    March 2017
    January 2015
    October 2014
    August 2014
    June 2014
    April 2014
    November 2013
    October 2013
    June 2013
    May 2013
    March 2013
    December 2012
    August 2012
    June 2012
    May 2012
    April 2012
    March 2012
    February 2012
    January 2012
    December 2011
    November 2011
    October 2011
    September 2011
    August 2011
    July 2011
    June 2011
    May 2011
    April 2011
    March 2011
    February 2011

    Categories

    All

    RSS Feed

Powered by Create your own unique website with customizable templates.
  • Home
  • About
  • Services
  • Testimonials
  • Get Started
  • Extras
    • Gallery
    • Blog
    • Workouts
    • Fit Tips
    • Healthy Grocery List
    • Favorite Things
    • Product Reviews >
      • Hair Products & Tools
      • Makeup
      • Preworkout
      • Protein
      • Other
    • Recipes >
      • Air Fryer Paleo Chicken Tenders
      • Baked Butternut Squash
      • Blueberry Cheesecake
      • Caramel Nut Granola
      • Clean Apple Pie
      • Clean Cashew Chicken
      • Clean Crockpot Chicken Noddle Soup
      • Chicken Tortilla-less Soup
      • Chipotle Lime Shrimp
      • Chocolate Chip Protein Cookies
      • Chocolate PB Protein Lava Cake
      • Cilantro Lime Chicken
      • Fresh Salsa
      • Get Well Soon Soup
      • Gluten Free Avocado Brownies
      • Gluten Free Chocolate Chip Cookies
      • Grilled Asparagus
      • Hearty Minestrone Soup
      • Not So Chunky Monkey Cookies
      • Maple PB2 Protein Pancakes
      • One Pan Chicken Sweet Potatoes and Veggies
      • Paleo Pumpkin Muffins
      • PB2 Ezekiel Bread French Toast
      • Protein Brownies
      • Protein Cheesecake
      • Protein Energy Bites
      • Pumpkin Protein Pancakes
      • Protien Shake Smoothies
      • Sugar Free Sweet Potato Souffle
      • Sugar Free Salad Dressing
      • Sweet Potato Chips
      • Tuna Burgers
      • Tuna Scramble
      • Turkey Chili